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February 12th, 2002 (01:07 am)
pensive

current mood: pensive
current song: massive attack - mezzanine track 8

now i go to bed, not to sleep, oh no... to sit and mull things over. come at situations from every possible angle. to work out the activities of my coming day in my head........to mentally batter myself into believeing certain things about certain someones. reflect on the conversations and activities of today. the good, the bad... and yes, even the ugly. then, after i've thought about it all, and feel as though sleep will never come... it will come..........at least for a few hours, and then i'll have that same feeling in the morning, like i've floated to the top and hit a ceiling fan, just to break into tiny pieces and

fall


to


the


floor.

and there i will stay, at least for a little bit. after a slice of disgust, i'll pick myself back up again, to switch back into the same old routine, never once learning my lesson. what's the point anyway? living in a bubble fearing the worst, is that what life's about? or is it more about getting it up to your elbows in muck and muddle? which is more entertaining? struggle or calm? it's all relative i guess.....
and now to that activity called "sleep"

Comments

Posted by: tallPaul: 492 Peanuts (tallp_ll)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 07:57 am (UTC)

that was fun to read...
(even though you are pensive)
*hugs*

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 02:26 pm (UTC)
Re:

thank you :)
*hugs*

when shall we do some kicking of it?

Posted by: Your Grandmother makes Crank in her bathtub (sweet_jcs)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 03:23 pm (UTC)

life is about bursting the bubble and leaving... if you can't leave (like I can't leave my bubble of a campus) then the best thing is to fuck shit up.. don't try and make the best of it, you'll only lose in the end.. instead... take it on yourself to mess with the people who are keeping you in the bubble.. FUCK WITH PEOPLE"S MINDS!!! MUAH AHW HAWHA WAWHA

sorry we had a bomb scare in my dorm today.. I have pent up anger from not being allowed into my room for 5 hrs

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 03:25 pm (UTC)
Re:

woah i would be pretty upset over not being allowed in my room for 5 hours too!!

Posted by: Your Grandmother makes Crank in her bathtub (sweet_jcs)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 03:32 pm (UTC)
Re:

yeah but on the upside I got to miss classes today and they BETTER be excused

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: February 12th, 2002 03:41 pm (UTC)
Re:

woo hoo no classes, boo hoo couldn't sleep instead... and ya, i hope they are excused too... cause that would be just bunk if they weren't. i would get all angry and shit, and jump around... foam at the mouth ... and stuff like that... cause monkies are crazy.

Posted by: Your Grandmother makes Crank in her bathtub (sweet_jcs)
Posted at: February 13th, 2002 02:13 pm (UTC)
Re:

monkies aren't crazy until you give them acid... before then they're more intelligent than your average human... hell...I let my monkey drive my car... I think everyone should..in a perfect world

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: February 14th, 2002 02:07 am (UTC)
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hrm. i don't have a monkey cause they are evil.

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