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"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else."

October 21st, 2001 (07:24 pm)
pensive

current mood: pensive
current song: Ministry of Sound - The Chillout Session cd 2

In this particular situation I wouldn't say the exact emotion is "love" but some small variation thereof.

This one is for you Joe, even though you probably won't get to read it since I am no longer on your friends list.

I never intended for this to happen. It was in the back of my mind as a possibility (as it is in any situation similar to this) but I never thought it would actually happen. If I could have it my way I would make everybody happy, but that's not possible all the time. I am very sorry that I hurt you. I am very sorry that you got hurt. I can imagine how you are feeling, I don't exactly know, because I've never been in that position, but I know that must not feel good.

You are a wonderful person and I am so glad I have gotten to know you. I don't want this to come in-between any sort of friendship we could have, but if it does I will understand that. Not because I want to, but because I respect your desires. I'm glad we spent the time together that we did.

I've always believed that people come into your life for a reason, to teach you something about you, your surroundings or human nature in general. Sometimes seeing the good in the bad is hard, but I am positive it's there.

If it was meant to be it will be.

"Everything is ok in the end, so if it's not ok now, then it must not be the end."

This has affected me. I just needed to formulate an appropriate way to articulate what I was feeling. I hope you will accept my apology.