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orange moon & lime jello

January 13th, 2002 (08:07 pm)

current mood: pensive
current song: radiohead - ok computer

radiohead fits today.

i've been really listless and down. more wine for me.
my family is severly dysfunctional. coming home depresses me. i almost feel like dropping out of school just so i can live away from them. that's sad.

spent the weekend with my boy. good for me, but i feel as tho i can't entertain him enough. i dunno... insecure ramblings right now....

i had to meet up w/some people from my art class today, we have to build a bridge made of spaghetti noodles on tuesday, so we did a dry run today. all i have to say is "AAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" ::sigh:: some people are so incompetent... but we knew this already.

my cousin is getting married the first weekend in feb, groundhog day to be exact. turns out i am invited to his wedding, just not his reception. oh well, that's not what i want to really go to anyway. my dad says he won't go at all. agh! so damn difficult!

i got my bong back, but now it's being housed at Leighs. too bad my friend still has my stem, so it's basically useless until i can get that back from her. damn... or buy a new stem, which i am considering ... but not now, next paycheck perhaps.

monkies are evil.
i had another bad dream with them in it... actually, i think it was more of a deja vu kinda dream, but this time i got further along in the story. i've had quite a few dreams like this...

well, i'm gonna go find something else to entertain me.... 'cause this isn't doin it for me...


Posted by: the mid-doctor (texel)
Posted at: January 13th, 2002 09:15 pm (UTC)

*kiss on nose* no entertainment needed, babe... just holdin' your hand and sittin' there :)

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: January 13th, 2002 09:48 pm (UTC)


Posted by: Big Smooooooth (j_rod)
Posted at: January 13th, 2002 10:37 pm (UTC)

Ahhh .... Sahrie goin through a bit o the downtime......

Dont worry, IM right there with ya....for some strange reason Im stuck with this feeling like IM playing the 'waiting game' of life.... Like IM waiting for something to happen, like this CANT be what --{[ITS]}-- all about...

One thing that might help, and i know it might be difficult at this moment...but you just gotta move out of hte house, it'll do you wonders, really it will.....find someway, somehow.....

But hte best part of your post is the 'dream' sequence. I have had the same recurring dream [epic saga if you will] for like 10 YEARS.... its crazy, and it just keeps building....can remember bits and pieces of it, but what I CAN remember is that when Im engulfed in this 'dream'EVERYTHING is defined. And the crazy part about it, and I have no idea what this means, but there;s a song that came out last year.. [i dont even know what its called, the chorus is like [....it feels so good, thats what takes me higher...higher than I;ve been before....love keeps me alive... {or something like that, I never really pay attention to the lyrics}]ANYWAY this song immediately brings this part of this dream from my subconscious and I can see this whole sequence happening...its the stranfgest thing cuz its only when that song plays.... kinda freaked me out the first time but it really makes you think of what your subconscious has stored up.....

I saw this movie last year, "Until the End of the World" there;s a lot of baggage with the movie, but the plot that grabbed me was that this scientist came up with a machine so we could SEE our dreams....see what our subconscious was thinkibng...these people in this lab started watching their dreams and ultimately were consumed by them, overwhelmed by their beauty and literally could not get enough... Anyway, I highly recommend watching it....

Whew, thats enough;)


Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: January 14th, 2002 06:31 am (UTC)
Re: !!!

hmm... that movie you speak of reminds me of a french film called La Cit Des Enfants Perdus.

Posted by: Roarke (bigr)
Posted at: January 14th, 2002 02:56 am (UTC)


"Karma Police arrest this man, he talks in maths."

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: January 14th, 2002 06:45 am (UTC)

"this is what you'll get, when you mess with us..."

Posted by: the mid-doctor (texel)
Posted at: January 14th, 2002 10:11 am (UTC)

transport.motorways and tramlines.starting and then stopping.taking off and landing.the emptiest of feelings.disappointed people.clinging onto bottles.when it comes it's so-so.disappointed


shell smashed.juices flowing.wings clipped.legs are going.don't get sentimental.it always.ends up drivel
one day.i am going to grow wings.a chemical reaction.hysterical.and useless.hysterical and.

you know.you know where you are with.you know where you are with.floor collapses.falling.bouncing back and
one day.iam going to grow wings.a chemical reaction.hysterical and useless. hysterical and let down and hanging around

(listen to letdown with headphones in a dark room...it's so beautiful because it's so sad yet hopeful)

Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: January 14th, 2002 10:40 am (UTC)


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