September 23rd, 2001


so far

i've managed to stay alive.

my car hit 163000 miles today. weee... i wish i had a camera, i would have taken a picture.

friday day...
i hung out w/my friend cj. we had fun... we played laser tag, air hockey and rode on some go carts... ate pizza and chatted w/his rents. they are so friendly & nice. it was a good day. i had fun :)
that evening...
when i got home i went over to misty, ty, jake and mikes place. we were going to do some drinking since mike was to be leaving on saturday. well, unfortunetly misty wasn't feeling too well, so she didn't drink, and ty stopped drinking earlier in the evening, jake doesn't drink (it was his birthday) and mike was the only one making any headway. i ended up having one whole beer, and then my second got spilled later on in the night (but it's ok, i wasn't going to drink it anyway)...SO... mike and i had a heart to heart. damn. why does he have to be the way he is? this boy turns my world upside down. after our talk he told me he wanted me to listen to a song

incubus- I Miss You

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you (?)

I see your picture, I smell your skin on the epmty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

this is making me cry.

the sad thing is that he didn't want to leave, and if he HAD played his cards right he could have continued to stay here. *sniff* i didn't want him to leave. the only thing i have to look forward to is the fact that he wants to move back here by january, but i don't know if it's going to happen... however i have this feeling i will see him again.

ok. i've collected myself. so i was going to stay the night with him... then when it was around 4am & i couldn't sleep because he was snoring. so i went home.

i went to brunch? with mike, misty, ty and jake, we had a good time. mike was a little bit withdrawn, which i was expecting. when he left around 145pm i cried, i couldn't bear to be in his arms for long, so our goodbye was fairly short.

then i had a day with cameron. we saw the movie the muskateer, not worth the money. then we went to my favorite restaurant... Copacabana... ummm... bolivian food..::drools::... after that we went to a few parks. altogether a good afternoon/evening.

i'm sorry Joe... we were supposed to hang out, i'm a bad person. u can kick my ass, i deserve it. if you don't mind, i would love to set up another day to hang out. it's all up to you tho...

brad, u called & i'm sorry i wasn't available. after reading your boredom posts i wish i could have provided you with some entertainment. i'm sorry.

well, tomorrow is sunday. i am supposed to hang out with an ex from highschool, david, he was supposed to call me today, but instead he called me at 4am on saturday morning, however i didn't wake up to answer the phone, so he left a message with his tel #s... too bad he was WAY too drunk to be understood. so i wasn't able to get them. so... it looks like i *might* hang out with cameron again. it's undecided... however, i do know this, i am having dinner with my family because my uncle from cali is visiting and my grandma is actually going to venture out of her house (this is rare cause she is so old) and come over for dinner.

sometimes i am a bitch. sometimes i am forgetful. i never mean to hurt anyone intentionally. if i have, i am sorry.

i am going to call it a day.... good night.
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    incubus- make yourself


i was at the park last night & i got attacked by misquotes *ack* i swear, smelling like coconut has it's disadvantages. i now have two bites on my left foot, a bite on my right foot and one on my back ... & who knows if i have anymore

hmm... spent the day with the fam. so now i'm officially CRAZY... AHHHHHH!!!! i can't wait for dinner to pass so i can go out and play pool w/brad. haha... i'm gonna kick his ass... :P j/k i suck at pool. it's so amusing to watch me attempt to play any sort of game...

Joe, what are you doing next weekend? i PROMISE i will not be mia this time.

i decided i want to teach my bird Gomer some new phrases... i'm shooting for shit machine... cause that's what he is, i swear he shits his own weight each day.

didn't hang out w/cameron this morning. if you are reading this, i'm sorry, will you accept a raincheck?


i'm starting to be perkier than i was last night, but i'm still battling with a small bout of depression. i hate these damn clouds. :P GO AWAY!!

i get to hang out w/an excoworker tomorrow morning. i haven't seen him since i quit working at boston market back in 1998. that's a long time ago. :P
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    Missy Elliot feat Ludicris & Jay-Z - One minute man