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day, yes

June 12th, 2002 (02:08 am)

current mood: blank

started the day like every other.
tired & late.
but i looked nice!
short black skirt, nice sandles, & a tight beige top
fog outside until i got to work. then suddenly it was sunny.
at least i got a good parking spot
i got a new position at my work
which will come with a wage increase
that's gotta be good
lunch rolls around... 7 eleven run w/gidg
umm... soda pop for lunch... how healthy....
got the same parking spot back
my lucky day?
didn't win any money on the first two lotto tickets i've ever purchased
that's the first & last time i'll do that
leigh came down for some chillage
little did we know that dinner with my family would turn into a two hour fiasco at cucina cucina
surprisingly enough there managed to be traffic at 11pm. it took me about 20 minutes to go a mile.
fucking freeway construction.
got home.
talk talk talk
ran up Andrews cell bill.

now i'm sitting here.
thinking.... what's next?

seriously, what the hell am i doing? & what the hell is my next move going to be? some game i'm playing... i don't even know who's winning yet.
things have been handed to me my whole life, honestly makes me believe in some sort of destiny
but i'm no child
i'm not her child either
bad joke.

forgive me father for i have sinned.
what have you done my child?
i was born.

i'm in this space between time & illusion. where everything just seems to be floating, & i'm drifting through it all like a feather on the breeze. if something gets in my way i just float around it.
no real problems
i don't let things get to me. what good would that do anyway? it's like admitting to some kind of defeat.

there have been a lot of coinsidences lately.
i think something, then somebody will say something about it sooner or later in the day.
or something similar in nature will happen...
it's been happening a lot lately.
thinking about the ability to pick up on what others are thinking.... it's possible, if you're paying attention

so the other day a coworker of mine told me that she was planning on getting her already short hair cut even shorter. almost to a bob. i honestly didn't think it would work (mainly b/c she's got somewhat wavy/curly hair... can we say POOF) she had layerd hair, and her shortest layer was higher in the back than it was in the front... so i told her she should just trim it up, but keep some of the layers... just not so long... b/c w/curly/wavy hair there needs to be some room for the ends to expand, & if they are all the same length it will be like a big poofball at the ends...... needless to say she came to work today with her hair cut in the style which i recommended.
she said she really likes it & was glad she listened to me.
she actually took my advice.... & surprisingly enough it actually worked! could this be a new arena of interest pour moi?

this post is turning out to be longer than i anticipated. ::shrug:: oh well...

so the first wednesday of every month the company pays for half an hour for lunch. (normally we only get a half hour...) so that means tomorrow i get a hour for lunch... what to do what to do. 30 minutes isn't enough time, 60 minutes can seem like too much.

payday this week. hizzah
this will be my gift to me. then i am going to try & not spend any more money....*crosses fingers*..... we'll see how that goes.

ok, i wanted to be in bed a few hours ago. i'm gonna feel so run down tomorrow.
wish i could call in dead.


Posted by: the mid-doctor (texel)
Posted at: June 12th, 2002 02:16 am (UTC)

go to sleep :P

and don't answer my txt msgs... oh wait, you're already doing that...

and go to sleep! ;)


Posted by: dissolves instantly (sahrie)
Posted at: June 12th, 2002 02:18 am (UTC)

hmmm... text messages huh?
that must mean my inbox is full cause i haven't gotten any...

Posted by: the mid-doctor (texel)
Posted at: June 12th, 2002 02:20 am (UTC)

ah yes, the old "inbox full" excuse, which his actually a valid excuse... ;)

ok, forgiven... *this* time :)

Posted by: Пётр Кириллович Безухов (aka Greg "Skid Rowe") (paris_of_priam)
Posted at: June 12th, 2002 02:21 am (UTC)

No, he meant TEXEL message. It's a different letterbox entirely. :)

And he's right. A good nights sleep does wonders for ones perspective on things. :)

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